며칠 전 잠들기 전에 뭐라고 중얼거렸는지 생각났다
그냥 이대로 잠들었다가 아침에 깨어나지 않도록 해 줘,
그걸 떠올리자 나 자신이 끔찍하게 싫어졌다.
어떤 식으로든 내가 절망해 있기 때문이기도 했겠지만,
그런 말을 중얼거릴 정도로 삶에 무책임해져 있었다니
그리고 내가 정말 계속 시를 쓸 수 있을까, 무서워졌다
깊고 어두운고속도로를 끝없이 걷는 일, 그게 삶인가
하지만 나는 이제 겨우 서른 둘인 것이다 세월은
지금까지보다는 좀 더 빠른 속도로 지나가겠지만
좀 더 힘을 내서 걷지 않으면 안된다는 것도 알고 있다
불빛도, 호텔 캘리포니아도, 없다. 이 길의 끝에는
절벽이 있을 것이고 그 아래 더 깊고 어두운 바다가
아찔한 높이에서 출렁거리고 있을 것이다 다만 그때
내가 날 수 있는 힘을 지니게 되었기를 바랄 뿐이다.
혼몽에서 잠시 깨어, 호텔 캘리포니아를 듣고 있다
환상은 달콤하다. 자 이제 체크 아웃해야할 시간이다
hotel califonia
eagles
On a dark desert highway
Cool wind in my hair
Warm smell of colitas
Rising up through the air
Up ahead in the distance
I saw a shimmering light
My head grew heavy, and my sight grew dim
I had to stop for the night
There she stood in the doorway
I heard the mission bell
And I was thinking to myself
This could be Heaven or this could be Hell
Then she lit up a candle
And she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor
I thought I heard them say
Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place
Such a lovely place (background)
Such a lovely face
Plenty of room at the Hotel California
Any time of year
Any time of year (background)
You can find it here
You can find it here
Her mind is Tiffany twisted
She's got the Mercedes bends
She's got a lot of pretty, pretty boys
That she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard
Sweet summer sweat
Some dance to remember
Some dance to forget
So I called up the Captain
Please bring me my wine
He said
We haven't had that spirit here since 1969
And still those voices are calling from far away
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them say
Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely Place
Such a lovely Place (background)
Such a lovely face
They're livin' it up at the Hotel California
What a nice surprise
What a nice surprise (background)
Bring your alibies
Mirrors on the ceiling
Pink champagne on ice
And she said
We are all just prisoners here
Of our own device
And in the master's chambers
They gathered for the feast
They stab it with their steely knives
But they just can't kill the beast
Last thing I remember
I was running for the door
I had to find the passage back to the place I was before
Relax said the nightman
We are programed to recieve
You can check out any time you like
But you can never leave